I don't have all the details yet -- I'll find them out when I attend the funeral this weekend -- but from what I've gathered, I think she may have killed herself. Notice I did not say commit suicide. That makes her sound like a criminal. No. My best friend did not want to die. She … Continue reading things my best friend’s death is teaching me. [trigger warning: suicide]
I haven't written since the fourth because I'm grieving, and when I'm grieving, words are hard to come by. One of my best and truest friends, who I've known since I was four years old, passed away this week. It was unexpected and heartbreaking and I've spent the past three days in a haze of … Continue reading silence in mourning.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUclh2JkMr8 The sky is a cold winter blue; a few smudged lines of peach cloud linger over the forested hill where the sun will soon rise. A mug of yerba mate sends wisps of steam into the quiet room. No one else is awake yet -- my favorite time of day. I light a stick of … Continue reading i walk through the valley of my own shadow.
spotify obsessions: what i've had on repeat this week Xiuhtezcatl 's album Break Free. This extraordinary man is the rapper version of Nahko Bear (who I've been a fan of for years). If you like music centered on spiritual activism, you'll love this artist.Fearless Soul's playlist Spiritual Workout - Intense Presence EDM Gym Fitness Workout. … Continue reading Monday Obsessions.
The universe always guides us back to embracing the totality of ourselves. We attract whomever and whatever we need to mirror back the aspects of ourselves that we've forgotten.Debbie Ford, The Dark Side of the Light Chasers Maybe there is parts of myself I've forgotten, left like breadcrumbs as I venture into the forests of … Continue reading shadow work.
Alright, look at me, posting more than once a week! I just finished an application to become a transcriptionist. I've heard that there's a high demand for them these days, and since I'm looking for a job that's flexible, pays a living wage, and that doesn't require a degree, I decided to look into it. … Continue reading becoming a transcriptionist!
"And in the autumn, when you gather grapes from your vineyard for the winepress, say in your heart, 'I too am a vineyard, and my grapes shall be gathered for the winepress, and like new wine my soul shall be kept in eternal vessels.' And in the winter, when you draw the wine, have in … Continue reading i am a vineyard.
I'd sit here and lament about how noncommital I am when it comes to blogging, but in truth, it would just be me whining about something that's been a thing with every blog I've had, so I'll leave it at: it's been ten days since my last post. In all seriousness, however, I would like … Continue reading picking up discipline after putting it down.
from my poetry book Cycles, picture/link in sidebar Yesterday, after a very busy day of running back and forth around town going to a business meeting, picking up my last CSA box of the season, and doing laundry, I went to my daughter's father's place to dogsit/housesit for him and his partner. On the way, … Continue reading 355. experiences are only bad if you don’t learn from them.
why do you resist your blessings? why do you put off what you know will help you? Why do you tell yourself, "I'll get to it tomorrow," or, "After I...." ? Why do you resist what makes you come alive? I bet you never knew / there's a universe inside of youCan I, by Alina … Continue reading 356. you are worthy of growth.